It’s been awhile since I’ve written a personal blog about what’s going on. I’ve been finding it hard to keep up with everything as I am overwhelmed with projects galore, tests and getting ready for NaNoWriMo. I do have exciting news with some hesitancy… I am 4 and half months pregnant with Tj’s little munchkin. I do have a 6 year old son so I don’t need too much advice, been there done that… any advice after the age of 6 is great though. Why hesitancy… well I’m prone to miscarry so I don’t like to announce until after the 6 month bench mark of safety. I guess this time around I’m trying to be more hopeful, besides I look like I’m getting fat instead of pregnant ha-ha…Got to explain the chubbiness or else people will think I eat tubs of ice-cream a day… oh wait I do do that! I do have pickle cravings but not with ice-cream. I’m craving bread and oddly enough I can eat it, with a gluten allergy I break out in hives and all that other fun stuff but since I became pregnant I can tolerate it and I have never been more healthy since I was last pregnant 6 years ago.

I am scared of what the future holds especially with school being a priority. I am not certain what I will do. All I know is that this is quite a surprise, seeing that my tubes are tied and it’s virtually impossible, but that .00001% chance still existed. According to the doctor my clamp broke open from all the heavy lifting I did at my old job with lifting over 50lbs and currently with my 56lb bag of school stuff and the kitchen sink. My boyfriend likes to claim it’s his super-sperm… I just smile and give him the benefit of the doubt, whatever makes him feel better about this unplanned blessing… I’ll take it! To top this all off I’ve had my Monthly friend every single month shorter and a lot less heavy but still had it… I had no idea that I was pregnant, I thought I was just getting fat and my cravings were hormonal imbalances. “Movements” I believed was just an upset stomach… boy was I wrong. Monthly Menstrual cycle mean’s not pregnant for most, I should of thought something was amiss when Tj instinctively would not stop gravitating towards my belly… Like rubbing it or kissing it all of which he normally never does and even he didn’t know why he did it. Mother nature is one cruel practical joke player!

Ok so it’s not planned, Now What? We are taking it day by day and enjoying the moments…. don’t get me wrong we are stressed to the brim, but nothing we can’t get through and find solutions for. Tj is finally opening communication lines with his parents, which is 20 years in the making. I’m getting my priorities in check and trying to de-stress and stop sweating the small stuff. School I’ll figure it out, worse case scenario I will do home studies. My grades as of current are great, my overall average is an 87% and climbing… well that’s if I pass the exams.  Everything will work out in the end, as things normally do.

  I also posted my pre-pregnancy all my weight I’ve lost photo *sniff* and my pregnant belly photo that Tj had to pull teeth to get. Apparently I’m glowing in this picture, although I still don’t understand the whole glow aspect… I still don’t see the glow effect at night and well I could use a nightlight since I can’t see my feet anymore! Glow in the dark abilities would be definitely be beneficial. However I apparently only glow when seen ha-ha!

Stay Peachy!